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This puts it all into words perfectly. They call it the "Quarter-life
Crisis."
It is when you stop going
along with the crowd and start realising that
here are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not
like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year
or two, but then get scared because you
barely know where you are now. You
start realising that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that
you
thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have
ever met and the people you have lost touch with
are some of the most
important ones. What you do not realise is that they are realising that
too and are not really
cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they areas
confused as you. You look at your job. It is not even close
to what you
thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realising
that you are going to have to
start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socialising with the same
people
on a constant basis. But then you realise that maybe they weren't
so
great after all. You are beginning to
understand yourself and what you
want
and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others
are
doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you
realise that you have certain boundaries
in your life and add things to
your
list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then
secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and
scared and confused. Suddenly
change is the enemy and you try and cling
on
to the past with dear life but soon realise that the past is drifting
further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you
are
or move forward.
You get
your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't
meet anyone
decent
enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone
else
too and cannot
figure out why you are doing this because you are not a
bad
person. One night stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap and
getting
wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. . You go through
the same
emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem to make
a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for
yourself and while winning the
race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be a contender!
What you may not realise is that everyone reading
this relates to it. We
are
in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to
figure
this whole thing out. Send this to your
friends...Maybe it will help someone feel like they are not alone in
there.
State of confusion those are our postgrad years!!!
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